 Thursday, June 08, 2006
 at 9:42 AMsometimes i wonder..do family mattter to me alot? sometimes i wonder...do my parents really know what i want? sometimes i wonder...why does my sister get everything she wants? sometimes i wonder...do my parents even notice me at all?? when will i get to know the answers? if there were any. this sis of my mine. cries.and she gets EVERYTHING she wants. yeahh.cool right.not cool for me.everytime when my mum sees me scolding my sis for making me DAMN irratated.she cries AGAIN. i will get bLAME.without even giving me a chance to explain. and everytime when she does something wrong. they will scold me. as if it's my business. yeahh. and my sis.sit there shake leg. i mean she's the one at fault.why m i the one who gets scolded instead of her?what have my sis things got to do with me. why not i just carry on my freaking life? why does she have to spoil everything?spoil everything since the day she was born?!from then on.attention was all to her. everything was tense.every word they began with is surely:"jolene, where are you?have u eaten ur breakfast?" gosh.she damn pampered right.thast's y she ALWAYS rely on them. for instance the chain.my mum brought it form china..wanna give it to me. but when younger sis saw it.she was "so-called" addicted to it. one word from her and the chain belongs to her.i mean, isit fair? it was supposed to be for ME. not her. why not she just mind her own business and not be so greedy. i tried to protest.saying that's mine.BUT my dad said:"joey..it's ok. ..being an elder sis, it's only rightful that u let u younger sis." HELLO??? what was that meant to be? yeahh.then i finally get it. making her happy is the same as making me miserable.such a great diff yeah? sometimes i really tried giving her the way she wants..but i have already done it to the extreme.i mean..i'm a human right. i want to be treated the way she is.but i'm not given the chance. all i do is only to occupy a little space of this house. gosh. can i just escape from this house? somewhere else free of misery? somewhere else i would really enjoy?somewhere else my tears would not drop because of them?somewhere else...............i actually belonged to. but is that impossible?i dont think so. heh.so funny. now i'm stuck with her for the rest of my life. great isnt it? xoxo, you know you love me |
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